After a week of giving myself injections of a follicle stimulating medicine, I arrived for my scheduled drs. appointment yesterday evening feeling excited and a little anxious. As I sat in the exam room waiting for the dr. to come in and do my ultrasound, I felt somewhat nervous about what the ultrasound would show. What if the results weren't good? What if it showed that I had not responded at all to the meds? But as soon as I saw the reflection of the dr. through the frosted glass, a feeling of calmness washed over me. I don't know what it was, but the feeling was undeniable. I knew everything was going to look good. And it did! The ultrasound showed that I was responding well to the meds and that I had two mature follicles! Before that appointment, the dr. felt that I probably wouldn't be ready for the insemination until Monday. However, once she took a look at the follicles, she said, "It looks like we're going to be doing this on Friday"!
YES, FRIDAY!!! Friday, as in tomorrow, I will be having my IUI procedure (insemination) at 11am at the Torrance office! It's very exciting, and somewhat surreal, that I could potentially get pregnant this weekend. But there is also a sense of fear that it will not be successful. I have to admit, I have a very good feeling about all of this, but there is that doubt in the back of my head that is telling me to not get my hopes up. If it doesn't happen, I will be crushed. But I guess I will be crushed whether I get my hopes up or not, so the best thing to do is to just think positively. And so that is what I've decided to do! Positive thinking, AND lots of prayers!!!
The procedure is not invasive and is not suppossed to hurt. In fact, they say that it's like having a pap smear. They'll be inserting a catheter into my uterus and administering the sperm through that. Once they have inserted the sperm, I'll lay there for about 15-30 minutes and go home. No bed rest, could totally go back to work, (if I worked on Fridays), or even drive myself to and from the appointment if I wanted to. But I don't want to! My mother will be taking me, and just for my own peace of mind, I will be laying down (with my feet in the air) all day, and taking it easy for the rest of the weekend.
And........two weeks from tomorrow (September 9th), I will take a home pregnancy test to see if the procedure was successful. It's going to be an agonizing two weeks, wondering if each ache, pain, or craving is actually a sympton of being pregnant. But, that is part of the process and I'm sooooo ready!
Wish me luck!